ORLAND- First responders do their best to keep people out of harms way, but the outcome isn’t always ideal.
“The reason why I did it was just because of a sense of wanting to help people and help the community and this was the best way I knew how,” said Eric Carlson, a firefighter with the Orland Fire Department.
He’s been with them for about seven months.
“You run over the incident in your head a couple times and it’s easier to be said out loud than let it be a voice in the back of your head,” he continued.
In the past two weeks, the Orland Fire Department responded to two fatal accidents.
“What we need to do then is find a way to get through the difficult parts and find a way to keep going,” said Assistant Chief Julia Gray.
Following these types of situations, firefighters of all levels and a pastor get together to talk about what happened and process it as a group.
“The guys that have done this for a long time have problems with this, too,” continued Gray. “It’s not just new or if you’re inexperienced. Everyone faces challenges and needs to talk it out.”
“It’s after-the-fact we think did it go good? Did it go bad?” Chief Robert Conary said. “We always hope for the best outcome, but that doesn’t always happen.”
They also reach out to each other individually.
“I know the mornings after I was involved in both, I had at least three or four people talking to me, making sure everybody was doing okay,” Carlson said.
It’s that type of comeradery they said keeps them showing up to keep the community safe.
“You’re better off discussing it and knowing how you feel about it and everyone knows how you feel about it than keeping it all bottled up inside,” Carlson added.